Hello! Welcome to the newly renovated blog! No more ads, a new look and hopefully more space for me to be more active and intentional this year. I miss this space!
Speaking of this year…
There are a lot of words in the english language, but even they are not enough to describe what this year held.
Ok. Quick recap:
January & February // eighteenth birthday, one year post PAO, dealing with a lot of post-op pain
March // first run in two years, David Crowder concert!
April // vacation to Hilton Head, shadowed Columbus Crew’s brand journalist…so cool!
May & June // graduation!!, my aunt and uncle adopt their second child, pick housing for college
July // Taylor Swift concert!, fourth hip surgery…hopefully last for a long time, Lindsey Stirling concert, vacation to Seattle
August // moved into college!!!
September // adjusting to college life, got a job covering sports for the school paper…found my passion
October // ran a mile for the first time in 2.5 years!!, SaveD the Crew, one year post hip dislocation surgery, my family got a dog!
November & December // best holidays ever, finals, another baby cousin, family family family, life is good.
Totally not offended if you didn’t read that. But looking back on this year is insane. So much has changed!
I am not the same person I was January 1, 2018. I look at so many things differently. My faith, my emotions, my health. God has grown me in every way possible this year.
I’ll be completely honest. I struggled a lot in 2018. Anxiety plagued my heart all summer as I prepared to leave everything I knew. I fought to stay present and enjoy every moment, but it was terrifying.
God blessed me with a smooth transition to an independent life. Don’t get me wrong, it was hard. It still is hard, a lot of me dreads going back after winter break. But the peace I felt and know I will feel has to come from God, because I could never have done that on my own.
After being at school long enough to wrap my head around the permanency of it, I began to freak. I go to a Christian school and I was so completely surrounded by Jesus that I couldn’t seem to find my personal connection with Him.
It was scary.
Honestly, most of my life there has been something going on that I needed God for. And at college, everything was fine. It was in the good times I found God hardest to find.
But turns out, I need Him for everything. In every time.
Every breath, every heart beat, every movement. They are all gifts. Gifts that I don’t deserve because I sin and I screw up and yet He died so that I could try again.
Going into 2019, I resolve nothing more than any other day: to become more like Christ and show others the grace I have so undeservedly received from Him.
A lot of recent years in my life have had some upcoming event. Some sort of thing to anticipate or fear. This year there is no evident major change, no scary unknown, no transition. God may (and probably does) have other plans, but I’m ready to ride the wave.
I’m at the point in my life where I’ve seen a lot of good and a lot of bad. 2019 is one of the few years where I have literally no idea what could possibly happen. And I’m completely and utterly okay with that.
So here’s to good unknowns and nothing more than a change in date, because luckily for us He is the same God yesterday, today and tomorrow.
All my love,