Moving Mountains

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Those little thoughts inside your head.  They can get pretty overwhelming. The one that asks,” did you lock the front door after you hurriedly ran out this morning? Oh wait! Did you even shut the front door?” Maybe it’s the voice that says, ” Your checking account is going to be overdrawn if you buy that new pair of boots!” “You aren’t focusing on your kids enough!” “You need to focus on your career right now!” “You aren’t a good enough mother!” “You need to go see your Grandma in the Nursing Home!” “Christmas is coming!! How are you going to afford to get the kids what they really want!” Do you ever get overwhelmed with all of the thoughts? I sure do!

What do you do on those days when those thoughts are like a tornado taking over your brain. They make it become harder and harder to focus on the task at hand. I find myself talking with a friend and stop mid-sentence to realize that I even my brain is multitasking these days! This is when accidents happen, or life altering mistakes. We begin driving our vehicle and sometimes our life on “autopilot”. We send that very important email to the wrong recipient. We forget to pick the kids up after school. We  forget to drop the check for the mortgage off at the bank! It happens to all of us!

I was having that very day today. Everything seemed to be a struggle or not work out in the favor I was wanting it to.  The thoughts were racing and everything was saying, ” You are NOT good enough.” “You do NOT have this single mom thing figured out!” “You NEED someone to rescue you!” “This is TOO hard for you to handle!” I called my Mom, to tell her something important about something that slips my memory at this moment and while I was talking to her, I was making dinner for five children and myself that I knew the kids probably wouldn’t find exciting, washing dishes and hollering back at the “Threenager” who was diligently telling me what I HAD to do RIGHT NOW!  I began venting to my mom all of my worries and all of the silly thoughts racing around my brain all the while dealing with every day tasks. Mom suggested that the “Threenager” and I could probably both use a walk. I packed up the “Boss lady” in our little red wagon, and we headed for the park. She smiled instantly and was happy in her own little world. I flipped on my “Christian” playlist and this is the song that came on. One of my favorites actually, but today they struck a deeper chord.

” They say sometimes you win some

Sometimes you lose some

And right now, right now I’m losing bad

I’ve stood on this stage night after night

Reminding the broken it’ll be alright

But right now, oh right now I just can’t

It’s easy to sing

When there’s nothing to bring me down

But what will I say

When I’m held to the flame

Like I am right now

I know You’re able and I know You can

Save through the fire with Your mighty hand

But even if you don’t

My hope is You alone

They say it only takes a little faith

To move a mountain

Well good thing

A little faith is all I have, right now

But God, when You choose

To leave mountains unmovable

Oh give me the strength to be able to sing

It is well with my soul

I know You’re able and I know You can

Save through the fire with Your mighty hand

But even if You don’t

My hope is You alone

I know the sorrow, and I know the hurt

Would all go away if You’d just say the word

Vut even if You don’t

My hope is You alone

You’ve been faithful, You’ve been good

All of my days

Jesus, I will cling to You

Come what may

‘Cause I know You’re able

I know You can

I  know You’re able and I know You can

Save through the fire with Your mighty hand

But even if You don’t

My hope is You alone

I know the sorrow, I know he hurt

Would all go away if You’d just say the word

But even if You don’t

My hope is You alone

It is well with my soul

It is well, it is well with my soul”

-MERCYME

The racing thoughts all stopped.  Not just for a few minutes, but for the rest of the night. A calmness came over me.  This is exactly what I needed to hear at that very moment. My thoughts and my problems are miniscule to other’s in the world crying out for God’s mercy. I know that sometimes unanswered prayers often work out best for His plan for us. Some mountains he chooses to leave unmovable. I trust Him and I can say, ” It is well with my soul”. He gives me peace, that ability for me to breath and know that,” It’s already been handled”-my final fleeting thought on that walk and just like that, the flurry I had been feeling swirling in my brain all day was gone.

…it is well with my soul

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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